Stories of inspiration, hope, and love - written by a foster mother to beautiful babies, terrific teenagers and everything in between.
Psalm 113:9 - "He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the LORD."
April 25, 2015
He Knew You
From the very second you were
created, in that moment when they came together in the darkness in the place
where they thought no one would see them, when they were madly in love with one
another – from that very first moment of your life when you were just the size
of a poppy seed, He knew you.
He knew you when they found out that
you were growing inside that most secret place, when you were just the size of
an apple seed.He knew how they would
react when they found out.It may have
been an unplanned surprising shock to them, but it was never a surprise to
Him.Even then He was the One who was
writing your story.His timing, His Hand
forming your heart and stomach and intricate digestive system, crafted every
detail with perfect precision.
When you were about the size of a
green olive, He was sculpting your facial features, shaping those tiny ears and
that little nose that are uniquely yours.Your heartbeat was strong enough to be heard on the doctor’s
Even in those earliest months, when
you lacked the vitamins and nutrients and minerals that your fragile,
developing body so desperately needed, deficiencies that would have life-long
consequences, He was there, protecting you and sustaining you.And when your little pre-formed nervous
system and growing brain were exposed to substances and chemicals and toxins that
no baby should ever have to experience, never once were you out of His sight,
out of His tender care for you.
As you continued to grow and mature
in the darkness, when you were the size of a plum and then an orange and then a
cantaloupe, when your hair and eyelashes and fingernails were growing and you
looked more and more like a newborn, you couldn’t have known what was happening
all around you.But He knew. He was shielding you and insulating you from
the grown-up problems that would affect you after your birth.
And on that most special of days,
the day when you appeared on the scene, the day that should have been full of
celebration and rejoicing, balloons and flowers and announcements, there was,
instead, a team of doctors surrounding you.From your first breath they went to work, immediately using all of their
skill and training and experience to make sure that you would be protected from
the viruses and diseases that you had been inadvertently exposed to.They wanted to give you every opportunity to
Even then God knew you.He knew that you were a survivor.A warrior.An overcomer.He knew that you
would fight with everything in you to beat the odds that were against you
before you were born.He knew the awful,
unspeakable pain that you experienced as your body did its job, ridding itself
of all the poisons that never should have been there.He was right there with you when you were screaming
inconsolably and shaking violently during the cleansing process.Even then He knew you.
And He knew, too, that in spite of your
innocence, in spite of circumstances over which you had absolutely no control, you
would become a part of the foster care system, a system that truly strives to
protect children, but a flawed system nonetheless.A system that doesn’t always make it easy for
a child to find permanency in a family. He knew that lots of adults would be making
decisions about your future.You can be
assured, however, that though they plan your course, He is the One who
determines your steps (Proverbs 16:9).
Every day in your current foster
home, He sees you.He knows that you are
slowly learning about the world around you.That, even though your early exposure to awful substances has made you
irritable and disregulated; even though you require assessments and therapists to
make sure you are developing on track; even though you are at risk for viruses
and diseases that will unfairly stigmatize you throughout your life – even now He knows that you are loved and
treasured.That your foster mama loves
you more than life itself!When you
smile and coo, the innocence and sweetness nearly brings her to tears.When you stare into her face with your
scrunched up eyebrows, it’s as if you are saying to her, “Please love me.Please don’t give up on me.”As if you are memorizing every detail of her
face, because already you know that the world is full of uncertainties, and you
do not know what tomorrow will hold.But
And His promises, the ones He makes
to little ones all over the world, are for you, dear one.His promises are true and real and steadfast
and sure . . .
Even though it doesn’t look like it
from here, He knows the plans He has for you, plans for good, plans to give you
a future and a hope(Jeremiah 29:11). He is able to take your circumstances, even the difficult, painful ones, and use them for good (Romans 8:28).
You do not ever need to fear.He promises to be with you, because He is
your God.No matter where you go or who
is walking beside you, He will strengthen you and help you.He will uphold you with His righteous right
hand (Isaiah 41:10).
He promises to be your Father (2
Your future may indeed be unknown
and uncertain.No one can predict how
the chapters of your life will be written, who the characters will be or which
details will shape your destiny.It is
impossible to foresee how the difficult circumstances of your earliest days
will affect the adult you will become.But
He knows.He is the One writing each and
every word of your story.
In the uncertain, unpredictable days
ahead, you can be sure of one thing: The
same One who knew you from the very beginning is the same One who is sustaining
you today and will be carrying you into tomorrow. All along His hands have been holding
you. All along He has been protecting
you and keeping you and caring for you.
All along, He knew you.
For You created my inmost being;
You knit me together in my mother’s
I praise You because I am fearfully
and wonderfully made;
Your works are wonderful, I know
that full well.
My frame was not hidden from You
when I was made in the secret
When I was woven together in the
depths of the earth,
Your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me were
written in Your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are Your thoughts, O
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them, they would
outnumber the grains of sand.